25. The Master Plan

Meanwhile I have been reading up on this whole 'sugar babying.' Leidra Lawson's book has revolutionised my way of thinking about this whole thing you know. Before I was just taking it as it came, with no plan of action, no tactics - nothing! I was walking into a minefield with not a clue how to avoid getting my leg blown off. So while I am disappointed I may have ruined things with FGF through my own ignorance, at least I can put it down to experience and build up a master plan. I didn't realise this thing was so hard, although of course it must be, otherwise every woman would be doing it! I can't get it right the first time! Oh, I forgot to tell you about FGF. He and I have drifted apart somewhat. I think he likes his 'babies' to be complacent and sit and smile and look pretty like those geisha dykes, but Saskia and I just wanna party, and I think the fact we like each other more than we like him was doing his fragile middle-aged ego some damage! So we are going it alone!

He has fled to India until the new year when we will reassess our 'relationship' - my theory is that his son has been kidnapped and he is going there to buy him back again. Or maybe he's just visiting. (It's odd that he's the dad yet he has sole custody of his son when his mother is living in a totally different country.... hmmmm, bit of baby-buying going on here?)

It's scary not having him as my backup but I am determined to follow the rules and forge ahead with a masterplan. My first obstable I have to overcome is finding a new place to stay in London. I must admit I am rather enjoying this quiet period of respite back in cosy Essex, that was until last night, Saskia texts me saying do I want to go to the Roberto Cavalli party in Mo*Vida and then onto a private table at Pangaea? I am so mad at myself for losing the FGF and with it my apartment, mad at myself for not keeping a spare party dress and heels in my bottom draw at the office and even madder at myself for letting this opportunity pass me by. Still, there's plenty more where that came from according to Leidra, so long as I work hard at the regime, work well with my sugar baby buddy (the newly-appointed Saskia) and devise a master plan.

I fessed to Saskia that I met FGF the same way she did, as before this FGF wanted me to keep it a secret, and she agreed that we need to go it alone, find some more Daddies and get what we want! And so that's exactly what we're going to do!